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Bitterness of Coffee/Bitterness of Life.

Mon May 5, 2008, 7:50 AM
Welcome back, my bittersweet hell........ Oh how I have missed you.

The reasons I had for being depressed over the last years, I thought I had left behind. But it would seem all has returned in full force. Especially being that it was just announced my brother and sister in law is moving back in. The lazy bastards that cant get a job and get some money just had the house they were squatting sold right from under their asses. And my mother, not being one to throw her blood onto the streets, so foolishly took the scoundrels back in. And now I have to live with their whorishness once more. Life just keeps getting better. I thought after loosing my 666'th year [6+6+6=18], things would start looking up. But nope. My love life is crap, my tafe workload is crap, my drastic personality changes have been crap, things I wont go into for personal/interpersonal/social reasons are crap, and now my homelife is going back to being crap. What a wonderful world.

Not only do I hate my brother and sister in law with passion for what they have done in the past - and most importantly last year - but them moving in means my uncle will also not move in like he had planned. This was beneficial to me as I no longer had to rely on bus times to get to tafe on time. I probably wouldn't be late anymore. Plus he would have given me driving lessons so I could get my own lisence finally. But now thats not going to happen, and I will have to live with my whore of a brother and slut of a sister in law. Damn this all to hell.

I have no idea what I am going to do now.......... I guess I have no choice but to endure for 2 more years - even though the first had me borderline suicidal the first time - untill I can either shack up with someone or that Williams girlfriend goes back to hongkong and I get an apartment with him.

Life really fails. >.-\<

This is Al, your emo ranting puppy, and thats all I have to say about that................ I need a hug.

  • Mood: Gloomy
  • Listening to: Pheonix Wright 1-4 OSTs Nadi-san gave me. n.n
  • Reading: Reborn Manga
  • Watching: Stargate Atlantis Season 2
  • Playing: GTA: Vice City Stories
  • Eating: Chicken
  • Drinking: Pepsi Max

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*:hug:'s puppy* :(

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“I would remind you that extremism in the defense of liberty is no vice! And let me remind you also that moderation in the pursuit of justice is no virtue.” - Barry Goldwater
Aw.. You poor thing.. I know what it's like to some extent having people crashing at your house. But we at least liked them... >.<

Hang in there. Be strong. And make a conscious choice to hold true to yourself, bove all things. Consider yourself long distanced hugged by the momma hen, and feel free to drop me an email if you just need someone to rant to.
Oh Al, I'm really sorry to hear that. But you have to be strong, for yourself. Life have its ups and downs, its just up to you how you deal with it, suicide is not one of them. Don't go all emo on me Alan! *shakes him*

Come to Tafe, I'll give you a hug there.

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"I have risen from the depths of Hell to do battle with you..."
-Godot

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